So, you may have noticed an unusual amount of activity on my account these past couple of days and wondered if your eyes did deceive you! Tis no trick... I'm back! Yay!

So first of all I send a big, big, big thank you to everybody who's left comments (especially the Happy Birthdays!!) on my profile during my long absence.

As for the whys and and what-fors, well... art block really can be a m#$@#&(*$g bitch sometimes. Without getting too maudlin, let's just say... I seriously doubted my ability to be a true artist at all for a while there, and while I still have fears and doubts, like I'm sure everybody does, eventually I dragged myself out and up and now I'm back - hopefully for a while this time. So thank you to everyone who is still watching, faving my artwork, and leaving those wonderful comments. You're a big part of the reason I came back.

Here's to hoping this inspiration lasts!

I have gotten myself a tumblr and a twitter account ^.^ Yay lol

Who very amazingly and graciously gave me a premium membership!!! What an absolutely awesome Christmas/New Year's gift!! I cannot thank you enough THANK YOU!!

Now I just need to bring some new life to this dusty old dev art page to make it worthy of this gift!

Hi everybodyyyy... yes it's one of those "I'm not yet worm food" journals. Won't go into heaps of detail but suffice to say I didn't travel too far out at sea and drop off the face of the earth (though my absence did include a trip overseas!!), I'm still around just... having a big of trouble with Sir Art Blockington. But thank you to everyone who has commented or fav'd my art in my absence - I've had a quick look through some of the comments people have left and they really brightened my day, so thank you everybody, very much Hopefully I the next update from me will actually contain some artwork! Wish me luck!

On a side note: GLEE IS AWESOME!

A rare journal update from me purely self indulgent waffle, but anyhoo... I have been thinking a lot lately about my art and where I'm going with it, because, to be honest I really don't know at the moment. All I know is that it's something I HAVE to do or else I would shrivel up into a wrinkly old husk of depression and probably never emerge. Dramatic, no? >_>

Anyhoo, am particularly worried about stagnating and not growing with my art which is something that I think has become a danger since I started relying heavily on digital artforms - frankly I got a bit lazy. Don't get me wrong, I still LOVE digital art and will get back to it eventually, but I just felt like I wasn't really going anywhere. Like I'd reached a certain point and... I need to expand. I still feel like I have a LONG LONG way to go, and probably will always feel like that because I think if I didn't, there'd be no point to keep drawing haha!

So with all this in mind, I've decided to go traditional for a while, after trying my hand at it again after so long with some pencil artworks. Pencil, charcoal, COLOURED pencil (which I have not used in forever! omg), oils, acrylics. All that. I guess I've just been itching to get my hands dirty. And my belief is also that expanding this way will help a lot when I get back to digital stuff. New techniques, new ideas... yay!

So no more digital art for me for a while (which considering it's what I've mostly done for YEARS until recently...). I do have some digital pieces I need to finish for other people, so I WILL be finishing those, but after that... yeah... new shores await!

What I'm basically saying is this effects none of you in any real way at all and I just wanted to make a grand announcement >_>

TA-DAAAA!!! -_-' I are lame.

BUT I would like to thank ALL OF YOU who support my art, faving, commenting, watching me, all of it! Hopefully you will enjoy this new direction I'm heading in...

You think I'd have learned after it happened to me once before but apparently I'm a slow learner -_-' somebody stole my painting of Sam Winchester (as well as the artwork of several others). My painting has been taken down now but it's prompted me to finally go back and watermark all my artwork (which I hate doing, it looks terrible). Probably a bit too late but, better late than never right?

I guess just a part of me (even now) just finds it hard to believe someone actually would o.o seriously, who does that? People are seriously that desperate? Oi... should I be flattered? I'm certainly annoyed.

But thanks to the people who found out and let me know!

Another good thing, at least it also gave me cause to update my journal lol

So, yep. My birthday, on the 12th. Gah. I think I'm too young to be this non-excited about it haha. Oh well, it's gonna happen whether I want it or not, right? I bet you're curious about how old I'm turning too eh?? Guess!

Oh and speaking of absolutely gut-wrenching events ( >_> ) I just finished playing Dragon Age Origins. And just... gah.. dear god... for anyone who's played I'm sure you'll get what I mean, but I'll try to keep it spoiler-free for those who haven't but want to play. STOP READING NOW though if you don't want even a HINT of spoileriness because I do mention certain key events, if not in any great detail.



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The ending. Wahh.. now, I got a relatively 'happy' ending - naturally played a female who romanced Alistair cuz, y'know, YUM. But, oh god... Morrigan's deal... where the consequences of both accepting or not accepting are absolutely awful. I'm sure people who've played will know what choice I made when I say my character ended up with Alistair in the end >_> I just couldn't not, and damn the rest of the world I know, I know, it's just a game but man, it's a good game that sucks you right in, I've never played an RPG that grabbed me this much.

I rarely game anymore so it was a jarring break from reality, kind of like a punch in the stomach. Don't get me wrong, it was an awesome game though! The whole story and depth is just amazing, though I admit to rushing toward the ending because I just couldn't wait to see what would happen... but seriously, what twisted writers, where no matter what choice you make, it's painful and you don't quite get what you want. It's very haunting. And sadly reflecting of real life situations at times. I keep praying for a mod to come out that will just let us skip over that whole deal thing but still come out roses. Or a way to let a certain sonovabitch someone live (so he can do the Warden thing with the dragon later instead of Someone Else or my character) without that Someone Else chucking a hissy and thus avoiding the need for Morrigan's deal at all. That just SUCKED.

Anybody else out there played DAO? What did you think???

Also, how sad I am more emotional about a game than my own birthday hahaha ah the priorities in the mind of moi... was a hell of a game though.

I can get back to my art now though

So, not really a journal of anything... but I'm on my lunch break at work and I just thought it was time to update my journal.

I keep requesting a work-hammock & afternoon naptime, but so far am unsuccessful. Will update when this situation changes.

I might actually finish my lunch break early, get back to work. Lunch breaks are boring without anything to do (normally I bugger off somewhere, but 'tis rainy and I has no car today). At least if I get back to work I be doin' somethin then

Also, how sad is this... I got told I must take a holiday. Apparently I work too much -_-' but at least I get 2 weeks off soon! ^_^

And now for something completely different...

ps you thought I was joking about the naptime hammocks didn't you?



Luckily, my workplace does too.
They're very cool here, fortunately.

I wasn't gonna do anything, but then I thought nah it's a pretty nice milestone, so I'll put the offer out there if anyone would like to take advantage: I will paint you something purty if you get my 10,000th page hit! just to say thankyou (since I'm so sh*tty with answering comments in a timely manner) for taking the time to stop by.

Rambling on... Still haven't gotten around to doing any features... I started to, but got all torn over what to choose, and then decided to put it off. Bad me

Should FINALLY have some pretty giftart to the wonderful person who made my journal skin for me, ~jodipheonix very soon.

And that's about it... ain't got a lot to say, which is probably a good thing. Cuz, y'know... at work... should be working... again, bad me. But I'm not taking a lunch break today so I think it balances out??? yeah?? >_>

So, to summarise: prize for 10,000th pageview thingie. Painting of whatever. I'm up for a challenge if you want just show me a screencapture or something of it (don't lemme catchoo with your pants on fire!)

And now for something completely different...

And o. my. god. on it. That is all.

Well not really. What did everyone think of it??? I'm curious! even though it was after midnight when I got home from seeing, I just had to stay up and paint something from it x_x paid for it the next day tho...

Anyway, my well-intentioned plans of home-made gifts and cards etc for Christmas all went the way of Rome, so, it was a lovely round of lastminite!gifts for the most part XD joy~ and in the one case I did follow through with a painting for xmas is extremely late in coming (ie not done yet) lol heehee

Still, I have a week off work which means more art time! Yay! though apparently it's also fighting-off-flu!time so, maybe not-so-yay... gonna lie down once I post this...x_x anywayyyyy

Hope everyone had a happy holiday time! xoxox I will try and answer comments during this break too ^_^ and in case I don't make another journal entry before then (and I probably won't >_>), happy new year!!

Just a quick note to let people know I'm still around and... Yes! I'm a girl with a plan! Sorta... it's a bit wishy-washy. But anyways... yikes, I go away for a few days and now I'm SO behind on eeeverything x_x DA messages, work projects, coursework, art projects...

Anyway, back to my plan. I'm working on several different things at once actually with my art. I've decided not to post any art from my series' until the whole series are completed, for better effect. Sooo... to prevent my gallery from stagnating, I'll be posting random other one-shots as I go. Maybe it'll make things a bit slower but it keeps my short attention span happy. I've got like 5 simultaneous paintings going at once though, and I'd like to actually FINISH one sometime soon... hopefully...

So I've decided to work on both the Angels and the Gods, so far nearly completed the second Gods painting, hopefully I'll be able to finish in in the next couple of days (maybe... if my muse is happy), as well as a couple of other pieces.

I also need to try and catch back up on all my DA messages... @_@ eventually! I think it's rude to leave a comment un-replied to, but I've only got so much DA time T_T ...

So in the mean time, Thank You to everyone who leaves comments for me! Hopefully I'll get to spend some quality DA time this weekend and catchup better. I feel so guilty by not answering everyone... sorry guys!

Hopefully I'll be back online this weekend XD



And now for something completely different...

Have you ever looked through your art and just... sorta hated all of it? I'm feeling a bit that way at the moment about my art. Nothing is good enough for me, and it's just hella frustrating... >_> sorry all. Random angry pointless rant there. Just feeling so ...grrr!! about it!

Oh and can I ask what is it with strange people who feel that it's okay to touch you without permission?! I'm in a hurry to get on an elevator the other day (because running a bit late) and as soon as it dings open I go to move in, except there's people inside, so I apologise and quickly back off, only one of the guys actually puts his hand on to STOP ME GOING ANYWHERE and says he wants to LECTURE ME on "elevator etiquette". Why would a random stranger feel that's ok?! Not only to lecture me (pardon me for being distracted and in a hurry!), but to grab me in order to prevent me from leaving?? I was so stunned I just stood there stupidly.

Ok, enough ranting! I could go on forever if I keep up! x_x I am gonna try and settle down and figure out what to work on next... I will be finishing a painting present for ~jodipheonix who made this beautiful journal skin for me, and then gonna throw myself headfirst into one of the many art projects I've got going. I'd love to just take a month off and art art art art art...

Whew, sorry about all that! Just had to get it off my chest...

I keep saying I want to do some sort of feature but never get around to it yet. If anyone is still reading this far, want to suggest some to me?? (i.e. do my work for me >_> hehe )

Yes, that's right, our office had our Christmas Party on Halloween. It were fun, but the club-goers certainly gave us some interesting looks! On another note, happy first of November! Year's almost over now... T_T anyway, that's all I can remember I wanted to say. I'ma get back to arting now.

And now for something completely different...

Okay so first off I must say a huge thank you to ~jodipheonix who so awesomely made this journal skin for me! Whee how cool is that?

I'd been trying to hold out to debut my new journal skin until I actually had something worthwhile to say... but it's been a few days now and I'm still coming up blank so, here it is! Tadaaaa

I really feel like there was something I wanted to mention... but I forget what it was... hmmm...

My cats and I are having a real communication problem. See, they only speak Burmese, and I only speak English, and I get the feeling they're just not hearing what I'm saying >_>

On another note, I have nearly finished my contest entry for [link] (holy crap it's due in like 2 days >_> ) so keep an eye out. I'm painting JUSTICE. I should actually probably be finishing it now. Then I have hmm only about a zillion other things I want to do. Wahhh why must I need to work full time?! Oh yeah, money. Ne'ermind.

And now for something completely different.